Getting Away, Giving Way

Sorry for not posting for awhile. I've been in the Philippines and I'm having an amazing time. Great time with family! I've had the opportunity to "get away" from it all and just bask in pure joy. I'm taking an extended Sabbath if I could say.

Time with my grandmother has been quite an experience. I don't get to see my grandmother as often as most do, and she's been great. She's so funny, even though she is deaf. She does an amazing job reading lips though.

I've been doing alot of thinking and it's been good. The Holy Spirit has been revealing many things to me and I need to learn how to heed to the Spirit. I thought I had the gift of discernment but situations are proving me wrong. I trust that they are. I believe I will end my thought: that I once believed I had discernment. I'm just not good at it. I thought I was good at discerning, but it's time to end my pursuit of a God given gift that I once thought I possessed. Goodbye discernment. I was wrong. I trust that this is the right thing to do and God forgive me if it's not. Situations are proving it wrong.

Hope all is well. All is well with me and I could stay here for much longer but I know there are other things I must tend to that I am held responsible for to the Spirit.

Flying free

I've been thinking about this phrase we all may have heard:

"Let it go, and watch it fly."

I've been thinking about how sometimes in life I like to keep things close to me or see myself wanting to control or even take control. But, how can I expect something to fly if I'm still holding onto it? How can I expect something to grow if I'm still holding onto it? How can I expect something to learn if I'm still holding onto it? 

LET IT GO! WATCH IT FLY! 

It may crash, but when that happens just help it up.

I want you to fly higher than I can, 

I want you to grow taller than I am,

I want you to walk further than I've walked,

I want you to see more than I've seen,

I want you to FLY! 

 

My game

So, ever since I can remember, I have always observed people. I like to observe people and see how they act and react. The interaction of people and the world around them interest me. Since I was young I would watch shows and movies that focused on the FBI, CIA, detectives, and the thoughts of people. Now I have an issue with trying too hard to figure out people's motives. It's pretty funny how when I actually figure people's motives out, they deny what I reveal or approach them about. But, I just don't do it out of thin air. I observe people and take note in my mind what they have said in the past and how they have acted and reacted. Then I use clues from the past to figure out motives. It's a game to me. I find it fun. I guess this allows me to entertain myself sometimes. 

Just giving you a glimpse of Joey world. 

When is "ready"?

So I just watched the end of this movie for the lack of something better to do, and just saw the groom and bride decide that they were not ready to get married. They both then ran away from their wedding. This made me think about being "ready". Am I ready for any of that, let alone a relationship? I do not think I'm ready for all that quite yet. I'm too busy having fun and being busy! But when the time comes, it will come and I think then I'll be ready. 

We live in a world that likes to push and pressure us into being "ready" but I think we should take it at our own pace. Some paces may be faster than others, but we have to remember that we can set and control our own pace because we are the ones ultimately making lasting decisions. Do not make impulsive decisions in being "ready" because you might miss what you were meant to be "ready" for. 

When Your Brain Won't Stop

Have you ever experienced a situation where your brain would not stop thinking of everything that is going on at a moment in time? 

I am unable to focus on one thing right now because other stuff that keeps popping in my head as I think of other things. It's driving me crazy. 

Maybe I'm going crazy! 

When I grow up, I want to be...

Do you remember when you were a kid and said, "when I grow up, I want to be.."? Those days were the easy days because we could predict what the next two years were going to bring us (school, school, and more school) and complete this statement with no fear. 

Well, I'm 23 years old and practically asking the same question: what do I want to do when I grow up? The next two years are unpredictable. I have graduated college and thought I knew what I wanted to do but I find myself once again at a point in my life asking what do I want to do when I grow up. 

Should I remain on the path and continue my academic endeavors?

Should I be content with what I have already accomplished?

Should I explore more options? 

You can have your whole life planned out when you are ten, eighteen, or twenty-one, and still be asking: what do I want to do when I grow up? 

Why? Because..

Many changes will occur, new ideas will be manufactured in your brain, new perspectives will be taken, and wisdom and knowledge will grow. 

So with all that said, when I grow up I want to be...

Starbucks, I have wronged you

I had a horrible experience in the past with a certain Starbucks. The customer service level did not measure to the standards or mission statements that are publicly displayed on the website. This made me frustrated. So, I decided to not visit that Starbucks location in the future. This past week, Derrick spoke about forgiving those who you think have wronged you. After prayer this morning, I was convicted of not showing forgiveness to Starbucks. This may seem small to some, but to those who have heard me speak about my experience know how passionate I was about this issue I encountered and customer service levels. 

You don't even have to be spiritual to know that you should let things go and not hold on to any wrongs. And we've all heard the saying to forgive and forget. One thing I am not good at is the forgetting part. I will always have the memory but I can tell you that I can forgive. With all that, I forgive you Starbucks. But, this does not mean I will forget because my memory does not allow me to do that. 

I hope Starbucks can forgive me.